pathetic economic niche

if these are life's terms, then fuck living life on life's terms - or, can i live on my own terms if i just stay sober? take me anywhere, is that what she said? christ - animals don't put themselves through this - maybe make my own terms? a little comfort, a little fuck you buffer to the edges of the world? would you wanna see me burn out that quick on clean clean fuel? would it be worth having me have a paycheque, to keep up appearances? like, there's an example of terms that are not my own, and don't need to be lived on anyway