leaning on...

leaning on murphy's law

thinking of myself as a villain in a jiu-jitsu move

i want the guy who sinned to be punished, but my frustrations get thwarted

watching an anti-hero get away with it, right til the end, in a frustrating prestige tv drama because the good tv show is the one that refuses to gratify me

but even more in real life! endless thwarting there... no justice... popping black pills

but if i'm the villain...

i did the bad thing, i sinned by taking the pills

i don't get the comeuppance i deserve

nothing ever happens

so maybe it evens out, maybe i can get away with crimes that are so minor in the bigger picture, right?

there's not even a long term significance, like chrissy shows up the next day, even after the epic fuckup but it's just business as usual

until the coke-induced car accident, but no one gets out alive