11 Dec 2014

That beautiful aerial shot of autumnal Nelson in the clinic waiting room actually sooths a bit. Inspiring. On this rainy dark anxious day. Life half unraveled. The whole town and all its bright associations in a single eyeful.

4 Dec 2014

neurotic cats

maybe i'm projecting, but if their whole role in life is to sleep, or eat some shitty food - that can be a hard choice - maybe that's why they meow - so plaintively, but annoyingly - if you can't sleep, you gotta do something - and that's when you get annoying - there's only so much sleeping you can do, even for a connoisseur of sleep. i don't believe in reductionism though - i feel like i gotta pay homage to it, and it's a bitch, but it can't tell the whole story - it's convenient, but true.

Maybe there's some comfort in complaining. I hope there is. I mean, she's so black, and so cool, she's gotta have more going on than I understand. Well, I'm almost banking on a lacuna of empathy. Or just sentimental love of the cuddly cat. I'm susceptible.

It's a strange state, to have all your mental faculties, but hijacked. You take a hard look at emotions, from a gauzed-out perspective. There's more going on though. I prefer imagination to cynicism and shallow reductionism, and there's people who realize the possibilities of that.

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and just another drama - a corner of a polyhedron wiremesh - do you remember, you node? i felt your personality, i just don't wanna describe it right here, right now, maybe i should, or i should have figured out how

i might not be able to communicate, so i might have to fill the null space - wow, what a job that is, what a wall... maybe not so bad, if values were slightly offset. it could be a lot different, when emotions are so arbitrary.

It's not even all that different. Unless that could make a difference in some economic scheme. But it can't, so it's lovely, yeah, it's smooth. And maybe some other words I'll come up with later.

Walled cities... the warp that wears off quicker than salvia... this is my channel, this is your channel... pre-mid-life-crisis. Ramalamas...