5 Feb 2020

Maybe I do wanna be a sucker. Maybe it's better than a pointless sense of superiority. Miserable sense. Maybe better to get suckered in by folksy corny crap. Appreciate it, see the good in it. Don't get suckered in by my own delusion of sophistication. But could you stop fucking talking? Why do I hate your voice so much? Even now, when I need to be teachable, when my own resources are utterly failing me? Can't isolate the variable. So, just change everything. Change as much as possible.... Hope you'll get the culprit.

10 Jan 2020

Camusian 'Why Not'?

References: i am the walrus - the beatles, terence mckenna critiquing existentialism, go rest high on that mountain - vince gill, amazing grace, monster mash - bobby pickett, mr. roboto - styx, quicksand - david bowie, autobahn - kraftwerk, the tom green show theme

9 Jan 2020

Too Many Notes

References: war - edwin starr, teenage mutant ninja turtles theme, all apologies - nirvana, fancy pants - ween, the gnome - pink floyd, the star-spangled banner

11 Dec 2019

Walled cities... the warp that wears off quicker than salvia... this is my channel, this is your channel... pre-mid-life-crisis.

Ramalamashanka da dunk a chunk cha chunk cha THUNK, dropping a litter of muelling cabbages, the thirty year old curmudgeon, respect the young man, that kinda young man, older and wiser is not always so inseparable - no, I don't want to dance, I'm not about to boogie. Everybody must not boogie. Non serviam. I Claudius.

Lame - don't be lame - don't be negative - don't - do NOT do that - don't do what Donny Don't does. Prevent forest fires. Take a bite out of crime. Hippo promoted to detective.

What is left? What is there? When the mind has crusted, become geological, thinks at a glacial pace, is too careful, too responsible. Utopia is nowhere.

E-coins are everywhere. You could make everything out of E-coins. You could make e-coins of everything. Make them mean what you want. What I need.

What are they gonna do, with the people I hope get in office? How are they gonna get rid of them? The heart attack gun didn't work apparently, but they weren't enough of a threat then. C'mon, problem solve. Endless creativity for ways to kill or co-opt.

Don't despair. Make it happen.

3 Dec 2019

I gotta say, I'm kinda loving the Ok Boomer thing. The only people that get offended by it are insufferable kissasses from younger generations that hope to get in on their parents' pyramid schemes, or stupid Boomers that like Boomers as a class of people way too much and chastise millennials [with no sense of irony] for being snowflakes. Cool Boomers are like, yeah, haha, I get it. I love cool boomers, or even uncool but nice ones with some sense of irony and history.

25 Nov 2019

so slick - so swish - you wish it was a fateful path, without airballs, nothing but net, every which way - nevermind the death-crystal, paying absolute mind to the flight path of the way which leads to this present you can stand

darlene and dom

21 Nov 2019

robot black out

mr robot and long blocked childhood trauma

he's not supposed to know - good for getting the mind out - learning to love - trying not to be mediocre

quick PSA text on the black credits - trauma voyeur like the king of the D R, the republic gleaming for a bigger island to own, it looks good as a backdrop to torching that round gleaming gleaming gleaming glass bowl with the meth vapor on the other end, feeling like a shaman, gleaning sacred knowledge by the atomized constituents one by one, gathering, beeping, like a gleaming fucking photon collater sucking bits out of the void, one by one, listening, feeling on a subatomic scale, points of light, substance, gleaming, hit the pipe again

feeling lucky - then feeling like i gotta control everything, CTRL-ALT freak flag, feel the power like some 90s dance thing, pre-cult days, when cults weren't so mainstream, and fascism wasn't the default - it's always the default now, like that joke in the rick and morty season 4 premiere, there's this weird freaky default fascism down the multiverse, proud shrimp fascists with their stiff upper lip shrimp faces, dominican psychos, etc. And then there's the whole last season of the man in the high castle, wow, and getting a haircut, and not asking for the "richard spencer", but squirming a little as the haircut and nazi associations keep looking good in gleaming leather - hitler has only got one ball, the other is in the albert hall - now we know how many holes it takes

this would be better musically, i haven't made the set up for full on keyboard and voice improv with the hours i keep here unfortunately

ah, google, i dissociate from the brand, i'm a blind user, using - but it sometimes feels like my happy clippy partner, auto correcting and knowing what it looks like i'm trying to do

how far down the rabbit hole do you have to go, when do you radicalize, get back to the root? crazy shit's probably gotta precipitate - too bad i already opted in to so many systems, even the new social media meta-systems, rooted myself, haha, allowed access, i've been thoroughly data mined, cause i never protected it feircly, but now i got some info-shields, a tinfoil hat but it feels good to wear it, don't wanna join any info wars, just shielding myself from the deluge of mind control, even as i'm getting into youtube channel demagoging cult trips and thinking that should be satirized in black mirror, maybe i should write that episode

i see them, they're pretending like they're winning, maybe that's the way to go, the pro-bono pronoia, the conspiracy is us, we're on the march, we're winning, feel the burn of victory!

i don't want the crazy shit most of the time, i'm not angry enough, don't have enough of a personal stake in the revolution - theoretical solidarity is maintained when detaching from the idea of myself being morally involved with any complicity in systems, which brings me back to feeling like i'm winning, don't have to do anything, can just watch it unfold, in theoretical solidarity with a side i cheer on - thinking it's cool to be cynical and clever, and wait behind the brave, the clever wait behind the brave, the cleverer wait behind the clever, DO NOTHING... OBEY THE NINE...

that was an awesome reference that one in nine million might enjoy - where can i find those eight hundred thirty three and a third people to form a pipeline to my niche niche niche podcast? it ain't about personally knowing anybody, it's a vibe the great galactic information stream gotta appreciate baby, percolate

20 Nov 2019

19 Nov 2019

Waking up... from what? Where did it go?

coming by fascism honestly... honestly, come on...

General cults. Cults around generals. Who are the four stars we gotta be worried about? Are they C grade business people, just low end billionaires? But they've got some amount of loyalists, always, they have enough of some kind of charisma that works on eager psychopaths and morally compromised. It's comfy to live in a place where you're not morally compromised, don't feel forced to be morally compromised, don't think i'm morally compromised anyway, the system is compromised.

Get on the intercom. Tell them something, prevent a clamp down. Everything under control, situation, uh, normal. That sounds like the right kind of balderdash, right? You could kiss the blarney stone in space heaven. Space Heaven is my favourite spaceclub. It's also a drum'n'bass club. We can fly there in the drum'n'bass ship. Jack that box.

5 Nov 2019

blank in water

Facebook is for spite. That's the face I keep there. I see a vote for slogan, vote for blank, and I get a panging, like I wish jack back sometimes, he's perfect for it, the zeigheist, the biggest spiritual heist since, I dunno, weak indoctrination, propaganda. A ping for my pang, sent a packet for you, a care package of information.

31 Oct 2019

pre white rose

I don't know why I couldn't write something. Maybe was being tortured, forced to accept another's reality, bend light and category for me, boot on my neck, seeing extra lights - I didn't wanna go for these references but it's almost like the ugly times are demanding it

30 Oct 2019

After watching Donnie Deutsch on a panel show

If I was worth 200 million dollars, but I only got one vote, the same amount as somebody worth 20 thousand dollars, I'd probably think that was unfair. So, I'd vote with my 200 million dollars, or I'd take at least 20 million of that, and turn it into raw political power, cause I could. Cause I had 200 million dollars, in a country where that could be converted into raw political power easily, legally even. Depending on where you live, the exchange rate of dollars to votes can be quite good, in some places you can get the equivalent of 20 thousand votes for as little as 20 mil. I probably shouldn't be allowed to have 200 million dollars. Baby you're not a firework. Show them what you're worth, but I'm telling you, it's not 200 million dollars.

25 Oct 2019

after watching the next episode of Mr. Robot

Welcome Back Mr. Alderson

that previously on segue they did, wonderful - and the stuttered ending - now i'm eschewing the vocals, focusing on playing - wish i had words sometimes, but it goes into the music instead - ah, in the world of words, we need an anchor of sarcasm, hang out in this empty chasm with me, i'm alone with you, hail satan, some fake savior, fake some savior, hail reverb, off the chasm wall

23 Oct 2019

escalator to nowhere

Improvised at my work piano. H4 recorder's card filled up at forty minutes while I was playing, don't know how much I lost, guess it must have been in wav mode, didn't feel like I was done yet so I used my phone for the rest.

References: 1969 - boards of canada, protesters sketch - mr. show, tiny dancer - elton john, i'd do anything for love (but i won't do that) - meatloaf, (everything i do) i do it for you - bryan adams, rocky mountain high - john denver, nights in white satin - the moody blues, road to joy - bright eyes, who knows - jimi hendrix, do re mi - the sound of music, the oompa loompa song

17 Sep 2019

Royaltea

Royaltea 1 - Corporeal's Going Away
Royaltea 2 - Congratulations Blues
Royaltea 3 - Lack of Iron

References: my michelle - guns n roses, valentine's day - david bowie, free falling - tom petty, running down a dream - tom petty, birdhouse in your soul - they might be giants, comfortably numb - pink floyd, another brick in the wall - pink floyd, nazi punks fuck off - dead kennedys, money - pink floyd, milk it - nirvana, pennyroyal tea - nirvana, love buzz - shocking blue

22 Aug 2019

Barbie evolved into Malibu Stacy. Malibu Stacy evolved into Lisa Lionheart. That's not nothing, that's an upgrade. Forgetting your troubles with a big bowl of strawberry ice cream turned into platitudes about believing in yourself and you can achieve anything. Conviction became a convict, chained cultist to the god of Belief. Lisa Lionheart became Ashley II, played by Miley Cyrus. That's not nothing. It's not Coke 2. But it's certainly not Coca Cola Classic. It has no real cocaine in it. It's just a cola. Not even a Pina Colada, no tequila, nothing but cola.

Winter's coming. Such as it is, anymore. These days, these crazy days. The yield curve is looking bad. I feel fine, but R.E.M. is not my jam, not at this time. All the wrong people die. I want to see more Epsteins, a scummy life reduced to an encouraged suicide, die shrieking, never understanding anything except a self-justifying warped morality. A few thousand of those is not too much to ask for. There's honour in sepuku. Do it, and don't give your money to your kids. We'll come for them if you try.

Achieve anything. That's your trophy. For achieving so hard, over-achieving, even - see the sullen derivative bass player? She's doing nothing new, achieving nothing. But in the future, everyone is over-achieving. Everybody learned to code. Everybody got a trophy. They're worth nothing, we need desalinated water, can't buy it with bitcoin or trophies.

References: zelda theme - koji kondo, , crimson and clover - tommy james and the shondells, eriatarka - the mars volta, stonecutters episode - the simpsons, part of your world - the little mermaid


19 Aug 2019




aka, westworld, when we gettin more'a that? I've got an urge to onomatopoeiacly ornament the colloquialness of the flow, you know? it doesn't have to swing, nobody's gotta be cats, hep or otherwise - swinging is optional, always the option, paralysis option...


15 Aug 2019

You're a vessel for sickness, you pay it forward, perpetuate. The little girl isn't worth saving, she's beyond salvage, innocent kool-aid drinker, no need for no acid test, skip straight to poison. Paper over your sickness with a red eye patch. Strawberry ice cream color. Doesn't it make you feel good? It's all about you. Your pleasure is my own. Am I being sarcastic? I don't even know anymore. Irony though, that's always operational. Operational exhaustion, battle fatigue, well beyond the days of shell shock, there's no poetic way to describe it, just algorithms.

It'll take another global cataclysm closer to home to kill irony again. What will another season of dead irony dread feel like these days? In these times, I guess they'll be different times. At least I won't be quite as alone, I'll have an epic bacon win reason to live. Actually, a much better flavour than that.

I look like a pirate... Manic giggle. The red dead redemption mission where you get to kill KKK guys and not lose any honour points, there's much to be gained. The dread pirate Janine, red in deeds, so pink in countenance, bloody in words, a hot mess, dumpster fire. So fucked up. Can't turn away.

The apocalypse was always coming, I was always obsessed. Twas ever thus, I heard a chant that soothed me enough to feel like I could spin off the wheel of life and death for a playlet, aesthetically pleasing, elegant like an attractive equation.

Maybe I do wanna be a sucker. Maybe it's better than a pointless sense of superiority. Miserable sense. Maybe better to get suckered in ...